11/22/09 02:56 am - ...y so srs??woohoooo i got into h3 lit!!! now to continue worrying about possible topics D: i'm really sorry to anyone reading this if you didn't get the H3s you wanted :( I think judging people based on grades alone (and not even grades for the subject in question) is really dumb but yeah there's a rationale behind it, and i'm grateful that the System decided to overlook my S's in math and history. esp because my appeal letter was so downright lame and totally not well written at all whoops
i realise i get through life a lot by second chances. this has to stop, i really need to start validating my worth and proving myself from the start instead of waiting to fail and then scrambling to fix things up. it's a different path from the one Genevieve (in our tsd group script THAT WE JUST FINISHED WRITING OMG HOORAY) takes to becoming an empty shell, but it'll end up at the same destination anyway. I really want to be worth something & to be taken seriously (even if a lot of the time I don't even take myself seriously, but that's a good thing...right?). What worries me even more is that it's so easy to just say this, yet i can't begin to imagine what i have that would make me special and different from everyone else wanting to be Worth Something too. but for now i am satisfied because we finished our tsd script!!1 and at some parts it is really lame, cliched, and corny... the flow/pacing is also off, but at least we've finished it! yeah, small victories. something related to the shit that hit the fan recently: i hope that at the end of this, we'll still be able to look at our little theatre baby objectively from all angles, know where we went wrong/where we were totally awesomesauce ("AWESOMESAUCE GROUP" FTW)... and still be happy about it. k that's it i obviously have a future scriptwriting for channel 8 or MTV dramas~ see you in the fast lane guys |

